Alright. I'm checking in at South Dakota. I'm going to make it to Sioux Falls tonight. But I'm taking a break for a moment to think and write.
So I'm just going to break something down really quick. Some of you are worried. Ok, I get that. But I want to clarify something. I'm having a blast out here. Seriously I am. This is an incredible experience. It's just those country sunsets get to me. I'm not ashamed of that. In fact I think we could all use more sunsets in our lives.
You're just going to have to get used to posts with an angsty undertone because my heart is naturally drawn in that direction, and toward the lowly, the poetic and the dark. I've actually been censoring this travel log and attempting to put extra frills in there in order to make you guys worry less. But I kind of feel like I'm over it. Yeah I'm going to still write a daily post. But you guys are really going to start to get to know who I am.
And I want to clarify something before this spreads like wild fire. Because I know how things spread like wild fire. I just had a conversation with someone and apparently the rumor has gotten out that I am in trouble. Ok. I know where this got started and I want to say that the word I used which started this rumor was "troubled." Haha. I have to admit something to you guys. I am troubled pretty much every day of my life. So now that secret is out but by no means am I, or my trip in any sort of compromised situation. I've got gas in my car, I've got a box of star crunch in my cooler and I've got the open road before me. And I'm not broke. Yet.
And I have a contingency plan for when I am broke should that event happen before I make it back to Utah.
But why should I be troubled every single day of my life you ask? And how can I admit to being happy if I'm always troubled?
I am troubled every day because I am very aware of how much suffering goes on in the world all around us. I am troubled because of the injustice that flourishes in this world, in this country, in our families and in our own hearts. It is very depressing.
That's why I watch as many sunsets as I can. I don't know what it is but they just soothe my soul. I guess maybe the slowly descending sun painting the sky with all sorts of grandeur reassures me that there is a greater purpose to all of this.
And it is in this greater purpose that answers the second question. However, I guess "happy" might not be a descriptive enough word. I might use the word peace instead.
Even though I am beset with many shortcomings, and there are many things that trouble me from day to day I am confident in the Lord. In the grander picture that is impressed upon my heart nightly with every passing and unique skyline I am at peace.
